....feeling calmer....

.....well I managed to get more concrete and clear information last night so was able to understand exactly where things stand which is what I have wanted all along. Some of it is good, and some of it not so good....what a meltdown though....this journey is so hard and such a new and different experience, it is hard to imagine how to react or feel and sometimes the feelings get all muddled....yesterday was not a good day and I'm sure there will be many not good days, today is a good day.... I was glad for what happened because now I understand what was a bit of a mystery before. While the wait might still be long, at least now I have a more realistic picture...that is until the next meltdown!...Thanks for the messages of support and helping me through the meltdown to the calm puddle that I am today....

Very upsetting news....

I'm very upset right now. As some of you know I contacted my agency about a week and a half ago to see what was going on as I had no news from them. Recently I discovered that they had email problems so I resent my message last night trying to ask what number on the list I was and some kind of info. I finally did hear back this morning wth an apology that they are getting lots of messages etc. and hard to get back...that in itself left me upset, as I have suggested to some of you, I have been concerned at how big or how many things the agency is trying to deal with and wondering what is going to be left unattended...well I feel my file is left unattended....I was told in late Nov. to update my documents, which I did in record time, and that a referral should come within 3 months....well now I am not told what number, I am only told soon and that there are a "few" families ahead of me?? when I thought I should be next, and now am told that between referral and travel to expect at least 5 months and this is the most devastating part, to not expect to travel before early 2011!!!!....so that would mean the 3 months to referral they told me in Nov. is now stretched to possibly not getting a referral until August, ???? I am just not understanding anymore...I have sent an email back....but am just so upset at the moment, I just keep thinking this is such a cruel process for all concerned and I really don't understand how timelines are calculated anymore.....

No News but more preparations....

Buona Pasqua! Happy Easter....

Well I really had hoped that I would have some news by now; however, as everyone knows, the timing is out of our hands, and no amount of planning for seems to work. Though of course that is how we lead our lives, we make plans...so how and why this journey is so challenging emotionally..very hard, after a lifetime of making plans to somehow not!...however that being said, this week was very peaceful, somehow feeling much closer to Vietnam in my body and soul and really hope that feeling stays for a while.......for now as I'm sitting here in the glorious sunshine of a Good Friday....I am feeling blessed for many reasons and just wanted to write a note to say that I am thinking of all of the Adoptive parents and children, and especially those parents waiting to be united with waiting children, and hoping and praying that while everyone waits, that there is peace and calm in the waiting...well at least for some of the time. For now I am wishing everyone a Buona Pasqua, a Happy Easter!....

p.s. unfortunately my first Vietnamese lesson had to be cancelled so will hope to continue in a week's time and then be able to start adding more Vietnamese words here....

Fundraiser for Vung Tau #3....

TDH Gala blog....Thanks for posting this info. Sandra....